hm, i’m almost at a bit of a crossroads here. i have been thinking about a person, a lot, and i don’t know what to do about it. i mean i thought about just playing it cool and see what happens. that’s probably the best thing to do; billie thinks so too! i mean it’s been like, two and a half years and i’m finally being noticed! grr, but i’m thinking that things sometimes aren’t turning out the way i want them to, i should just ignore it. but i hate being ignored, and i hate how i have been for a long time. i feel so happy, yet sick at the same time.