poem: hate you

why can’t i be
what they want
or what i want?
why can’t i be
caring
loving
a nice girl?
i don’t care enough
or do i?
why can i be
so cold
yet want to be so caring?
why can i pretend
to be so nice
yet want to lie and hurt?
yes
that’s what i want
no
and it’s not this

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